Nostalgia

[Felinefancier]

A couple of friends from university died recently - cancer in both cases. I'm organising a college reunion of around 30 mutual friends in memoriam for them both later in the year. It will be forty years since we all first met.

I am drowning in nostalgia looking at pictures of us all when we were teenagers, so much so that I seem to spend a lot of my time daydreaming about how my life might have turned out if I'd made different decisions.

It's beginning to feel like I much prefer living in the past to the present.

Is it just grief, or does anyone else get like this?

I get this and awful lot. I'm actually writing down my memoirs , feel free to laugh and mock, but I suffered a lot of traumas and abuse as a child and it led me to make some questionable decisions as a teen and young adult which have affected my life to this day and I feel like I wish I had made so many different decisions and given myself a better chance. It's easy to be hard in your past self, when you're so much older and wiser and more secure in who you are. It's shit that so many decisions you make as a teen or uni student can shape your life when your brain still isn't fully developed. Enjoy the memories, look forward to your reunion, but take it easy on yourself.

OP I think we'd all be lying if she said we didn't all do the same. I think you're probabaly already feeling emotional about your friends passing, which is making you feel sad about everything. The best thing you can do is have a great time at this reunion and remember that memories are always through rose tinted glasses I'm sure the you of 15 years time will look back at the reunion in this way too 😊