Hi. I’ve name changed for this. I am looking for some good advice about a strange (for me) place I find myself in.
I have had a very tough five years and the last three months in particular have been very traumatic. I am pretty resilient and I have dealt with a lot of this by myself to protect other parties and because I am a very private person. The events of the past three months, as I say, have been particularly traumatic.
I found that my way to deal with the trauma was to sleep, which I did a lot, and find some light diversion to enjoy. I am not a person who watches a lot of reality tv and don’t know much about celebs but I found something which was diverting and quite joyful. So I’m waiting in a hospital corridor after horrifying news and to keep me entertained I would watch clips of a show I found was taking my mind off things. As well as the sleep, I suppose it was a coping mechanism. I became really invested in two people and enjoyed their love story. I am at the point where I am wondering if I should stay with my DP. I don’t know whether the relationship has run its course or whether I am feeling detached because of the events of the past few years.
I am not a romantic person normally but I do love a love story and find it really uplifting.
However it now turns out that the people I was invested in may not have been the happy couple I thought they were and honestly, I feel really upset. I mean, upset to the point where I could burst into tears when I think about it. This is not me at all. I don’t react like this usually. I suppose it is some sort of projection but how weird is this? Also, what the hell can I do to make myself feel better?
The traumatic situation that happened is much improved and it is amazing that has happened. Why then am I so upset about people on a screen who I will probably never meet?
Wise (and gentle) words please, if you have any thoughts.
Thank you.