Just that really. Had an extremely traumatic birth with DC1 nearly 6 years ago that ended with a crash c section and both of us nearly dying. I have been too scared to contemplate having another since. But the drive is stronger and stronger with each passing year. I think about another child all the time now. I want one desperately. I'm only 30 so hopefully my fertility is OK.
I'm absolutely terrified at the thought of something going wrong with a pregnancy or during the birth, and me dying and leaving DC1 without a mother. I've had counselling about this and I'm still scared.
Did anyone with a traumatic first birth manage to overcome this and have another?