I feel like I detest myself lately. Give me some simple tips. Wellbeing and weight loss

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I've always struggled with MH but not massively for a while. I feel low a lot. But then it seems to pass.
At the moment. I look in the mirror. I hate what I see. I'm just average never been a good looker. I'm OK with that. I'm happily married 3 dcs etc.
But my skin is awful. Large pores. Greasy quickly. And get a lot of facial hair.

Then there's my weight I started a diet 1st week in Jan. Lost 6lbs.
Then i feel stressed about something or Drained, kids not sleeping, dh has worked a crazy amount of hours, so battling a terrible 2s, a pre schooler who lately has become a bit rude and not doing anything they're asked. Bedtime battles food battles. Etc
So I then eat the junk.
I'm 5ft5 and 12st 10. I'd like to just lose a stone to start with.
I previously lost a huge amount of weight when my MH was at its worst but it was lost through a form of bulimia. I got to 10 St in a short period and everyone said I looked too thin. Gaunt etc etc
Thankfully my MH improved massively due to meeting dh, 2 dcs later and I can't seem to lose weight. Because I have to get up and go because I don't want to become obsessive I have to take a more laid back approach.

What would be a good amount of calories a day.
I can go walking most days but not for long. My 2year old hates the pushchair and won't walk far. I can do maybe an hour in the pushchair to the shops and long way home. Problem is I tend to find u need a reason to go as in, walk to sainsburys and buy some bread, veg etc. But then I buy more random crap. And spend money we should be saving as our thjng this year was not needlessly spend

I don't know I'm rambling now. But any tips on
Dieting
Skincare for lily large pore skin
Making time for me.

DH is out the house lately on average 7.30am till 10 - 11pm. 6 days a week. Which makes stuff a bit trickier.

I'm 50 this year and still have my lock down wobble going on and some more. I've spent all my adult life having this battle. And guess I always will but the last few weeks I've been making an effort to eat better and no snacking. 3 meals. Plenty of fruit and veg. And this week a went along to a ladies running session. I thought I can do 30 mins of slow jog/walk. And actually managed better than I thought I would as I've never run before. But because it was a group there was various paces set so there was someone pacing you even if it was walking. I've booked for next week too so couldn't of been that bad
And drinking more water. The battery has died in my scales. So. I've no idea how affective this has been but I'm just going with it

Can you do a youtube workout once your toddler is in bed in the evening? Or really early in the morning? Run around in the park, being silly? Have a disco in the living room?

It's not easy for you as your partner works such long hours. Maybe at the weekend you could go for a long walk on your own... today I walked for an hour and that burned 350 calories.

I find once I exercise I don't want to ruin it by eating shite all day so I make better choices.

Yes I probably could do something when theure in bed. But tend to find the evening is gone with washing up. Shower. Prep for the next day etc. But could definitely squeeze in something. I'll have to make time!

The walk in his day off may work we tend to go all out together like the woods, Country parks etc so we do walk. However quite slow as the kids are walking ( normally the opposite direction to what we need them to haha)

Tomorrow I'm going to put pen to paper. Wrote some meal ideas. Although I tend to do 1 meal that everyone would eat but I'd half the portion than usual as I do make massive portions. Make sure all the junk I like is out of the house. Dh can take it all to work.
And write a plan for each day of a bit of excercise even if it's a 30 min fast walk with the pushchair or an hour to the shops. Take the car much less. Try to only use it for school runs and big weekly shop.
Look at some YouTube videos to workout to. Any suggestions would be great.

If I have it written down I'm more likely to stick to it I like a list,