I’ve lived where I live for 24 years. My dc have only known this house.
The plan in my head has always been to move when my youngest finishes school in two and a half years. Exh chose where we live so being able to start a new life somewhere that I choose I thought would be exciting.
But, I have no idea where I would go (or too many ideas) but more importantly how I am ever going to be able to leave this house.
There is some sadness linked to the house - my horrible divorce happened here so it has been witness to that - and also to some of the horrible things that happened between ex and I before that (eg ex not speaking to me for weeks at a time for example which happened fairly regularly).
It’s a lovely house but needs money spent on it which I don’t have. I don’t think I will ever be able to leave it though. I was wondering if anyone could relate to that and feels the same about where they live.
At the beginning of our relationship and when the dc were small, extended family and friends used to come here regularly.
No one comes here now - literally no one. Partly due to the divorce, changing life (dc at secondary school), and the pandemic. But there is the memory of the people who did come here including my Mum who died when my dc were small.
I can’t imagine someone else living here, or walking down this street and not being able to go into the house (the answer is not to walk down this street I know).
How do people navigate emotional moves of this type?