Trigger Warning: Sexual Abuse

[NamechangedforthisillgowithBob]

Hopefully name changed for this if I've worked out how to do it. I've had a really odd revelation today. I was abused when I was a child approx 7 or 8. For the most part I dont think about it and I feel it hasn't affected me although it probably has somewhere along the line. But today at work and completely out of the blue I suddenly realised that my abuser didn't have a big penis as I've always thought but rather I had small hands. It has really rattled me as I dont know why this thought came to me out of nowhere. Is this a thing? Or does it mean I havent actually dealt with it? Or should I just go back to not thinking about it

Have you ever talked to anyone about what happened? I mean some sort of counsellor maybe?

I'm sorry to see that nobody has picked up on your post. I'm not an expert to help you, but I do think maybe it would help you to get some sort of therapy to work through this.

I'd also recommend therapy if this is starting to pop into your head regularly. It probably has affected you in ways you don't realise.