Hi, I'm feeling pretty depressed and feel like I'm not on form for my kids. I'm able to care for them, feed them, although this can be stressful as they r so picky, wash them, give them love and affection but I feel like I'm not 'present'. It takes me alot of energy to get motivated. My ds is 6yo and my dd is 3yo. I live with them and my husband. I feel too embarrased to talk to anyone and keep these feelings to myself and feel isolated.
I feel I am struggling most with school mums and struggle with social interactions and have had some fallings out with mums at school after my ds had issues with fall out's, I tried to talk to the other mums about what I felt was happening and was trying to put it accross as nice and friendly as possible but they were totally oblivious to what's been happening and took major offense, and I feel they took it the wrong way and just feel like everyone has their friends and are so carefree. I talked with the school and I feel the boys are now okay but I feel like i've ruined my chances of fitting in as the mum's probably want to steer clear of me because of it. As I write this I feel pathetic and that I should snap out of it and get on with things but I can't help feeling low and tears are flowing. I already take anti-depressants, i'm just wondering if anyone else is finding this so hard.