Before you answer this with 'call the dr stupid' i have an anxiety disorder and adhd, and at the moment am suffering severe decision paralysis.. so i'm asking for advice/a poke in the right direction to try and get myself motivated to DO something.
I always suffer badly with anxiety this time of year as standard.. i get ectopic beats/chest pain because of it, i'm currently awaiting more CBT but waiting list is looooooooooooooooooooooong.
I also have Asthma which i have inhalers for and am using as its been 'set off' seemingly by a cold i had pre christmas.
The issue is there's been a LOT go on the last month, and i can't make head nor tail of whats going on with me.
I had my booster begining of december, it caused some indigestion/stomach pain/chest pain that lasted a week.
Then i got exposed to Covid, and a week later developed a cold.. all PCRs negative, i did the 10 days of daily lft too, also negative, so just a cold.. but its upset my asthma.
The covid scare has upset my anxiety BIG TIME, i'm in full on crisis mode, suffering all the physical symptoms, constant gnawing dread, palpitation at random times, indigestion, which on top of the asthma tight chest/corresponding cough has me feeling like absolute shite.
My anxiety is trying to tell me i have covid and i'm going to pass it on/kill everyone, so i'm in a self imposed isolation, even though it is now.. 18 days since exposure.. and i can't handle stepping foot out the house or having strangers anywhere near me right now.. it just tips me into full on panic attack mode... which i'm doing my best to mask from family because i don't want to panic/worry them. i've had a lot of cbt and i'm a MHFA so using my whole tool box to keep myself in check as much as i can.
I also have major imposter syndrome and keep telling myself i'm just overthinking it and there's nothing wrong with me and it'll go away eventually once i sort this stupid anxiety out.
So.. i can't call the dr, because its chest pain and asthma and i know it will trigger a face to face appointment, or possibly an ambulance (has happened before and they decided nothing was wrong) and then my brain goes into panicing over scaring my kids, hospital visits.. and catching covid, or spreading it to my family... and i'm just going around and around in circles with myself.. its fucking exhausting.
I don't know what to do.