I’ve never roasted a chicken in my life . Supposed to be making Christmas dinner - entirely alone - for my mum and sister tomorrow .
Mum can’t help - long term severe mental health difficulties that they thought was dementia but decided last week is probably ‘just’ a personality disorder - and sister won’t help, she has autism/milder LDs but won’t help, she’ll just stand and shout that I’m doing it wrong .
I bought a chicken crown from Tesco, stuck in oven with water, white wine, veg (celery, carrots, leeks) onions, lemon juice, chicken stock and butter and it’s come out so bloody dry it’s almost inedible . I puréed the veg down, and seived it with the meat juices and wine to make gravy . The gravy’s salty/very fatty tasting and the chickens so bloody dry .
Mum has told me its been cooked wrong (she’s a fully trained chef so would know) , but I followed online instructions down to a T except we don’t have a roasting tin .
I’ve already cooked her breakfast, and lunch, neither of which Mum enjoyed I think (because of the mental health) and now I’ve screwed up dinner .
Have spent eight hours in the kitchen, I haven’t received a single present except for a and just want to cry and walk out . I haven’t had a proper Christmas for years now with everything going on and feel like I’m being ungrateful and miserable but I am absolutely exhausted . I should be glad I’m at home with mum as they were threatening a nursing home last week but she can’t do anything at all, even needs help to brush her teeth and hides her washing etc .
I’m not good enough, I’ve screwed up everything, and I don’t know what to do. GP just says take bloody valium to block it out and then can’t function .
Anyway how the hell do I save this bloody chicken? Haven’t got anything else I can serve sister tomorrow and she’s already had a Chinese last night so won’t eat another, and have to feed mum something !