**TRIGGER WARNING CSA**

[Itsmyjob]

I have NC as its related to my job but I need to say how I feel as I can't tell anyone.

Please be aware this contains references to child sex abuse and rape.

I have a job where I provide benefit advice to the public. I have done this role in different areas for over 15 years. Right now I work for a local council.
Sadly over the years I have dealt with many criminals but I always belive I am there to preform a role and they have always "served their time" when I deal with them. These sorts of cases are few less than 10 in all my years.

However today after providing advice and support I googled the person. Now I usually don't bother as I get the gist of their crime when talking to them so just get on with my job. However today the client made constant references to the severity of his crime. Which is rare they normally play it down.
We were on the phone over an hour and he mentioned how bad his crime in 1989 was I googled.

I wish I hadn't. His crime was heinous and the 10 years he served was not enough. I do not need to deal with him again after today but the rape and 2700 images of toddlers being abused he was sentenced for makes me want to vomit.

I cannot belived I spoke nicely to this person and I helped him! Yes it's my job and honestly I have helped some vile people but this guys history has made me feel sick and ashamed.

I love my job. 99% of the time my job helps so many people but today the role I do made me want to quit.
I cant tell anyone in real life so I had to say it somewhere. Sorry.

Yup that is shit you had to deal with this oxygen thief. Sounds quite pleased with his loser self tbh. Have a wee brood then don't let it have headspace.

That’s a nasty experience. Thank god you don’t have to deal with him again.

Do you have any support/supervision with work to be able to talk about all that?

Some cases are very hard to stomach and offering help to people you feel don’t deserve that help even harder.

I’m also uninterested about the fact he mentioned it so much. He clearly wanted to draw you in and have the opportunity to tell you. Probably all for the shock factor :(

You’ve dealt with it really well though.

You’ve dealt with it really well though.

Thank you and thank you to the posters who say the same.
I can normally remove myself and I have dealt with some nasty men but his crime is just the vilest ever in 15 years.

For those that asked yes I can access support through work but I have officially logged off until next year so will access it when I return.
I have dealt with CSA and rape cases before and for all I was disgusted I did my job but this man and his crime was so bad, can you imagine it's worse than CSA, its really got to me!

Not what I needed to start my Christmas with.