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She was 98 years old

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AgrippinaT · 21/12/2021 00:04

I am grief stricken. My lovely Nan, proud member of the Land Army, mother of 9, working class hero.

She died March 2020, during lockdown (which one I can't remember) from a short illness.

I don't know why this evening but I am totally inconsolable. I can't see for tears.

Wish I'd have spent more time with her.

December is a sentimental time for so many of us and for reasons other than festivities.

OP posts:

StillMedusa · 21/12/2021 00:11

I'm so sorry for your loss x This time of year is hard for so many reasons.
I'm learning the piano and have been learning 'Oh Holy Night'. Started singing it as I was playing and was taken back to my Gran who was a good pianist, singing and playing it with me as a tiny child and it brought back such longing for her.. I totally understand. Be kind to yourself xx

Thebathneedscleaned · 21/12/2021 00:12

I think it's normal to remember lost loved ones around Christmas.

Tell us a bit about your nan if it helps.

DramaAlpaca · 21/12/2021 00:16

I'm so sorry for your loss

I understand how you feel, having lost my own very special Nan at 98 as well. It was 17 years ago and I still miss her very much and treasure my memories of her.

AnotherOneWithNoGoodName · 21/12/2021 00:18

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Your Nan sounds like a very strong lady.

Kitkatchunkyplease · 21/12/2021 00:28

Ah 98, what a tough cookie she sounds. I bet she had so many great stories to tell

Workinghardeveryday · 21/12/2021 00:34

I am so sorry for your loss xxx

KingRoloIV · 21/12/2021 07:43

Sorry for your loss, she sounds amazing!
Christmas always makes me think of all of those family members who are no longer with us 😢

Saz12 · 21/12/2021 09:21

Sorry for your loss.

Christmas is a hard time when bereaved, and this is the first one that we’ve been able to do family festivities since. It’s OK to be sad, and her being elderly doesn’t mean you shouldn’t feel her loss.

Vallmo47 · 21/12/2021 09:23

I’m sorry Op, I completely get it.
Sometimes it helps to have an off day and just really feel the pain. Cry it out, then tomorrow is another day. She wouldn’t want you to spend too many days crying, but of course you feel it.

skyblueone · 21/12/2021 09:25

I get it too, my Gran died 16 years ago and I miss her every day..there isn't a day I don't think about her. I'm sorry for your loss.

Gargellen · 21/12/2021 09:27

Everything like this seems to be felt that much deeper at this time of year.
I listened to the radio 4 program about the Penlee lifeboat yesterday. Both DH and I were sobbing.

I cry when I put up my Christmas decorations because it reminds me of Christmases past when I had all the family members that are no longer here.

You are not alone OP.

TorySteller · 21/12/2021 09:35

Ahh OP.

I think it’s totally normal to feel like this, and your grief is still so raw.

I lost my wonderful grandad 7 years ago, and it still hits me like a wave every Christmas.

CeeceeBloomingdale · 21/12/2021 09:42

What can amazing life she had, she sounds like a special lady. It's normal for grief to ebb and flow, particularly around key days. When I feel like this I like to buy a bunch of flowers (always yellow, my nan loved yellow flowers) and put them in my living room and then I feel she is with me and knows I am thinking of her.

TheQuernsSperch · 21/12/2021 09:50

Light a candle for your nan and be thankful to have had this wonderful lady in your life for so long.

Topseyt · 21/12/2021 09:58

I am very sorry for your loss. I totally get where you are coming from.

I lost my Dad in March 2021. I'm finding this December very difficult, with the thought of never speaking to him again on Christmas Day etc.

I think that the short days of winter and the long, dark nights certainly don't help. There isn't sufficient bright daylight to even make a start on lifting the mood. I am consoling myself a little this morning because we have reached the winter equinox (shortest day), so that very slowly improves from now onwards.

for you, and a hand hold. Be kind to yourself. Your grandmother would surely have wanted that.

Topseyt · 21/12/2021 10:04

@Gargellen

Everything like this seems to be felt that much deeper at this time of year. I listened to the radio 4 program about the Penlee lifeboat yesterday. Both DH and I were sobbing. I cry when I put up my Christmas decorations because it reminds me of Christmases past when I had all the family members that are no longer here. You are not alone OP.

I heard that too, whilst driving home from last minute Christmas shopping. I could feel the tears too. I remember the event happening and being on the news too, although I didn't live anywhere near. It was so sad.

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