I’ve just weighed myself … I’m morbidly obese

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I knew I was fat but haven’t stood in scales in three months, I weigh 22 stone 9 . I’m five foot 9 . Top size 26 bottom size 28 if I’m lucky .

I’m devastated, I’m only 30 years old .

I know why I’m big, it’s to do with childhood trauma and it was a comfort mechanism, but it’s out of my control now and I’m scared it’s going to kill me.

I have PCOS, and I struggle to walk sometimes, and I’m often out of breath and wheezing . Struggle to use seatbelts in cars . Struggle to turn over in bed at night and always wake up with a headache so I’m guessing I’ve got sleep aponea . I’m agoraphobic and won’t go out alone which makes it worse . I’m scared everyone’s judging me.

I don’t know what to do or where to even begin . Eating makes me happy, m food was my only friend as a child - except it’s not my friend at all, and I’m not sure what I’d replace it with .

I’m on high dose mirtazapine which says it causes weight gain so that probably isn’t helping but neither is the fact that I can easily consume an entire large dominos pizza alone, within half an hour (bingeing) .

Well done for facing up to this. Ask your GP for help, so that you can lose weight safely.
You've got this, OP!

Hi, well done for posting. I can hear your desperation.

The biggest thing that helped me was going to the gp. Not fad diets but sitting down with the dr and talking it all through and then going from there.

Your weight is not who you are, and it's also not your fault.

Hugs . You have already made your first step in handling the situation - saying you want to do something about it. It is very easy to turn to food for comfort, I am an emotional eater and it plays havoc with my weight.

Talk to your gp about possibilities for losing weight. They could maybe refer you to a dietitian to discuss healthier meals and meal planning? You could start going for walks every day, start small and build it up (my husband started walking 5 mins a day and was soon walking a hour and a half a day, and lost 3 stone). You could also maybe speak to your local gym about a personal trainer? They make workouts to suit you and are there to motivate you reach your goal.

Also, perhaps ask your gp about the mirtazapine, is there a way around taking this if weight gain is a side effect? (Like replacing with another med, or even just get some advice on how to control weight when taking it).

Good luck, you can do it if you put your mind to it.

Oh my dear I just wanted to say well done for posting about this.

I've spent the last 4 months slimming myself down from a 28 to a 26. Only 10 stone to go! It's a horrible feeling. I have a neurological condition which means I can't walk far, and that's got a lot to do with my weight. But every time I go out in my chair, I reckon people are thinking "fat therefore wheelchair" rather than the other way around.

Food (and wine!) are my pleasures in life. I can't get an endorphin hit from going for a run. I can swim a very little, but as I've no feeling in my arms and legs, getting in/out is an embarrassing game. So I don't.

I've been really good at cutting carbs and it's been brilliant getting into my size 26 jeans in the drawer. I still let myself buy a 28 top for Christmas (fairly big in the norkage department!). I'm going to do Dry January and that should make a difference.

It's ghastly being so fat. I don't think it's possible to be fat like me and happy. I have happy moments, but overall I'm pretty miserable. But the only way to get round it is to focus on being healthy. Good points for me are I love raw vegetables, so snacking on carrots or sugar snap peas (yes, even at £1 a bag) makes a big difference. I love fish, so salmon and veg is a good meal. I'm saving my cheese cravings for Christmas, but reckon if I lose another half stone by then it won't matter if I put it on again. And I'm throwing out all the unhealthy food when dh goes back to work on 4th Jan.

Please, please feel free to pm me if you want some support. It would do me good too. It's awful, not knowing where to start. There's a Chinese proverb that says "the journey of a thousand miles starts with one step". I'm on about step 5.