Hello, I don't know where to start, I was a single mother of a 2 year old ( past father non existent and abusive while on relationship) I decided after 2 years of being alone with my little one to start my new love life after getting therapy and focus on myself i was ready. I met this guy who seem so funny and my soul mate, he knew i had a 2 year old and her father wasn't around but still decided to want to be with me, he wanted me to move near him to be together ( he has 2 kids from previous relationship and had a toxic past too) i didn't want to judge him as i also had a toxic pass, i moved to be with him and he just moved in with me. at first everything was good but after a while he expected me to pay whole rent, bills and moan if i said we needed food. things go deeper when he decided to go drinking with friends all the time and expecting to use this house as a hotel and me as a maid or a PA .... his money situation wasn't great his van broke down too many times and i ended up lending him two thousand pounds over the course of 1 year which has not been paid, I felt i've been the shadow of his past relationship he will always bring ( all woman do this and that) he would say i don't work but ask me always for money when he needs while he works full time. he seem jealous of my toddler and says she is difficult its been a year now i am pregnant with his baby and he disappeared a weekend to drink no communication i ended up hitting rock bottom his behaviour is the same of his ex behaviour towards him when they were in a relationship. he blames my child but lives rent free and bills free.I had to look for therapy to be a better person for the sake of my kids and i dont trust him as he broke that trust. he promised me he would make it better but all he did was being covid to this house ... i ended up looking after him, my toddler and try to look after myself while 8 months pregnant while this time he was promising me he will do anything for me, he will get help and he will put his head down and work really hard to mend his debts BUT after 2 weeks seems to come back to the SAME OLD i am 9 months pregnant now, my toddler is sick, i've been poorly that i can't even go outside for a walk on top of that he is battling in court to see his kids as his ex has refused him to be with them for 8 months which i've been helping him with all paperwork.
He comes home to tell me he is bored and seems its the same everyday , that we cannot go out because i have a toddler and made me feel yet again like he prefers to go drinking with friends and no be responsible than accept the hardships like I had for the past months.
I am physically sick nearly giving birth and all the stress as affected me and the baby i don't have family members to support me only me and my toddler ... i don't know what to do but i don't feel happy either that he brought so much debts in this relationship and has made me not have my money because i've helped him so much.
I've been cooking and cleaning still and not seem to much of a help from him but i just carry on... i feel this might be the end of us and its sad... : /