Advice needed please, or a good shake.
DP tested positive two weeks ago, self isolated. Me and ds 2 and ds 5 weeks tested negative until a week later, when me and older ds tested positive. Luckily minor symptoms for both of us.
However, I have five more days of self isolation and am really struggling. DP back at work in week so it’s me on my own in very small house with tiny garden from 7-5. Older ds is a real handful at the moment - he’s very unsettled after arrival of baby brother and also by DP being away isolating (which in the end didn’t work anyway!).
I’m crying all the time. I wake up each morning knowing that each day is going to be shit, trying to balance baby feeding with difficult toddler, trying to instigate games/arts and crafts when ds2 would rather watch tv, but he gets bored of that then starts being naughty. He was really naughty a few days ago and hit the baby, hasn’t done that since but I can’t relax at all.
Had bad PND with baby number 1 after terrible birth and feeding problems, baby number 2 much more straightforward in that regard so thought I’d escaped PND but I can feel it all flooding back.
I feel like a total failure, and so guilty about amount of tv being watched. Am exhausted too, baby wakes every 3 hours at night normally and takes 45 minutes to finish feeding and go to sleep.
Sorry, I know people have it tougher than me. Am so fed up. Can’t stop crying at the thought of another 5 days.