Bit of a self pity thread

[changeonameo]

It's my wedding anniversary today. But DH died last October. And right now I'm sat in A&E with DD (she's fine, thankfully, paramedics brought her here as a precaution after she choked) and we've been here for 5 hours now without seeing anyone beyond the initial triage nurse and I realised that I have no idea how we're going to get home because I don't have anyone to call to come and pick us up.

I can't help but think about how different this would all be if DH was still alive. And that's breaking my heart. I'm so, so lost and sad without him.

@changeonameo I am so sorry to hear about your situation. You have every right to feel sorry for yourself.

I'm so sorry. It's incredibly unfair and horrible that you're having to face both the grief itself, and all these 'small' reminders (that aren't so small).

So sorry for your loss

On a practical note is there a friend who could pick you up or a local taxi?

I'm so sorry & sending you an unmumsnetty hug

It's the little things that get you like once you wouldn't have had to worry about the lift home as your DH would have been there to do it.
And yes it's only natural that it feels like a shitty mud mountain at the moment, another hurdle to overcome.

But you can do this. Do you have enough money for a taxi home, or enough money at home to pay for a taxi.
Is there anyone you can call to give you a lift home?
Are you in a big city where there will be a bus service starting within the next hour or 2?
I was in A&E earlier this year & there was a man in the predicament of how to get home after being bought in earlier hours ago. He lived out in the sticks, car was at home, no one to collect him, didn't have enough money for a taxi which would have cost at least £40. The hospital sorted him out an ambulance transfer home in the early hours as they had a few people who needed to be taken back to that area.
(Also something to do with the fact that albeit it's a hospital in a city it covers a very wide rural area - like Cornwall)
So maybe your hospital could do the same.

Don't worry, although I know it's easier said than done x

Thank you everyone. Miraculously managed to get a taxi - the driver said he hardly ever works this late and just happened to be round the corner when my job came in - bit of a godsend as I have no idea what I would have done otherwise. Missing DH very very much but also very thankful that DD is okay - I know all too well how quickly things can go wrong. She's safely tucked up in bed next to me and we're admiring the Christmas tree lights. Fingers crossed we both get some sleep now. Thank you all so much. MN has been such a lifeline for me, especially since DH died.

@changeonameo

Thank you everyone. Miraculously managed to get a taxi - the driver said he hardly ever works this late and just happened to be round the corner when my job came in - bit of a godsend as I have no idea what I would have done otherwise. Missing DH very very much but also very thankful that DD is okay - I know all too well how quickly things can go wrong. She's safely tucked up in bed next to me and we're admiring the Christmas tree lights. Fingers crossed we both get some sleep now. Thank you all so much. MN has been such a lifeline for me, especially since DH died.

I'm so glad you got back okay, and that DD is all snuggled up. Hope you can get some rest.

Snuggle and sleep well.

Glad you got home ok. And dd is ok.
I can't imagine how you feel but I think you sound very brave and a great mum . Hope you got some sleep