Can’t cope anymore

[FeelSoAwful]

I just can’t cope anymore. I’m 28 weeks pregnant with second child (much wanted and loved) but I just want him to be alive and me not.

I’m so overwhelmed with everything about life and I don’t know what to do. I’m already under the perinatal team and see a (private) therapist weekly but it doesn’t make the blindest bit of difference.

I wish I could just be signed off work or something but I’m self employed so that’s not possible. We already have a cleaner (who is amazing btw) who comes weekly before anyone suggests that.

I just don’t know what to do anymore.

Have you been given a crisis line? Does your partner know how low you are feeling?

I'm so sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed. Is there anything particular thats overwhelming you? Can you talk about it, maybe to samaritans.

Can you double up on your therapist appointments? You said it doesn't help but IME these things take time.

Have you got family support, a crisis team you could contact.

I'm not qualified in anything relating to mental health OP but I'm happy to talk to you any time.

Yeah it just so happened I had some appointments already this afternoon so they’ve sent me to A&E to get seen by psych team.

I don’t think we can afford to double up on therapy appts, they already cost £55 a week and I’m about to go on maternity leave in a few weeks time so gonna have even less money than usual.