Postnatal depression and relationships

[Mjlt15]

Hi this is my first time posting and I’m not quite sure what I’m after.
I just feel so alone. I have a 5 month old and a 3 year old. Since my 5 month old has been born I’ve been really struggling. But worst of all it’s taken it’s toll on my relationship. Whenever I’m sad/stressed/down etc we always end up arguing. I just crave some love, or someone to tell me that I’m doing a good job or that it’s going to be ok and all I ever get is made to feel worse. Why did you that/ why did you this/ you’ve said this/you’ve said that etc.
Whenever we argue I always feel like I’m going crazy and there’s something wrong with me. Sometimes I feel like I’m screaming and crying in his face that I just want him to support me and it’s still argument.

Just to let you know before this we had a very normal relationship. He is also a very hands on dad. Am I a bad mom. What am I doing so wrong?

My experience of PND was like instead of wearing rose tinted glasses, I was wearing shit tinted glasses. So every comment sounded like a criticism, every small hiccup was a failure.
If you haven't already spoken to a health care person /GP about how you are feeling, please Please PLEASE do! It doesn't have to be like this, and it won't always be like this. You are Not a bad mum, but you may be an unwell mum.
I can't comment about your relationship, but obviously depression can have a big impact and perhaps he doesn't realise that your mental health had taken a dive