Am I depressed

[topcat2014]

Objectively there is nothing wrong in my life. No money worries, family OK etc. New job going OK.

However - I just want everyone to shut up, go away, and stop talking to me. I am repulsed by Christmas. Hate the phone r inging, don't want to talk to anyone much (inc DW, but happy to talk to DD)

The elephant in the room in our house is an adoption that failed, a few years ago, of a little boy - as it happens a similar age to the current tragic case we are all currently reading about.

I no longer really look forward to anything. I worry about parents dying (when they are only early 70s).
DD leaving home (when that will be to uni in 4 years)
And I wake up at 4am.

You know yourself and how you’re feeling, and something is amiss
Make a GP appt and discuss how you’re feeling. You may need AD. Encouragingly medication has good efficacy
Think about diet, and exercise, even if it’s only getting out for a walk.
Try be open with your partner even if only to say your feeling low and it’s hard to articulate
You’ve alluded to past event and feeling preoccupied, that’s understandable esp with media coverage of the violent death of Arthur
You’re preoccupied that Your parents will die, Try process that there here in the present and make the most of that rather than the what ifs
Your dd going to uni is a positive and exciting event in the future, again don’t get preoccupied by the what ifs

I wish you well
Go see GP
Hope you get some respite and things begin to feel a bit better