I've changed username for this and have put it here for pure traffic volume! So apologies. Feel at breaking point. Started a new job a year ago, part time hours. I hadn't worked for 10 years, did a degree halfway through that, youngest has ASD, eldest is on pathway, currently year 10 and is not looking to come our with any quals, being offered alternatives though. School are, eventually, being really helpful, we have one particular teacher who has his back completely and is absolutely his advocate in school. Middle child is typical middle child, very intelligent yet stroppy, feels hard done by and is in all honesty pushed to the side more often than not. I feel constant guilt. I'm a single parent and have been for years. I've had two promotions since starting my job and am now managerial level at full time plus hours. I love my job but members of my team don't seem to do their jobs properly and there are always excuses being made for them by higher up management. My house is an absolute dive. I share a bedroom with my youngest so my two oldest can have their own. She has no floor space to play anywhere as I just don't have time to tidy up enough. There is clutter and mess everywhere. As soon as I finish work at 5.30 I am straight into housework. I also have a physical disability which means I have weakness in my limbs and fall often. My confidence has taken a huge dive and I don't leave the house anymore. I can't even get the courage to leave the house, I work from home 80% of the time. I was so confident before but a desk job has seen me like the weight on, four stones in the last year. I'm huge. I've cried on and off for a week now. I had a day off last week due to a virus and slept the whole time. I'm constantly exhausted and lacking motivation. I feel fed up and I really don't know what to do. I can't afford to drop back down to my old job. I haven't even called tax credits and told them that I'm in my new one so I know I already owe at least 1k in overpayment, I just couldn't afford to lose the money. I'm terrified if I go on sick it will affect this job and any future ones. I've applied for something else and given my quals Nd now experience I'd say it's likely I get an interview at least, although I am awful at them and my current manager acknowledges this! She's lovely and completely right though. I just feel at breaking point and I don't know what to do. I can't even make decisions anymore. I do everything on my own with barely any support or physical help. I just don't know what I do or how to do it.