Always on the outside looking in

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Does anyone else feel like this?

Yes... but then I've had times I've felt like that and then people have said to me that they feel like that but I'm clearly on the inside, so I think it's partially how I feel rather than what is actually happening.

Yes all the time if I’m with anyone other than Dh or DDs. I put it down to a traumatic childhood.

Sometimes, depends on which friendship group I'm with. One group I feel so far out in orbit I may as well be in a different solar system....

Yes! This is exactly how I feel.
It seems I am not allowed a normal life of happiness, a career, good health, stability etc. It feels like none of those things will happen to me. I can't see the future at all. Every day is a day at a time, and I am done with it.

@XenoBitch I'm so sorry that things are so rough for you at the moment. Do you want to talk about it?

@XenoBitch

Yes! This is exactly how I feel. It seems I am not allowed a normal life of happiness, a career, good health, stability etc. It feels like none of those things will happen to me. I can't see the future at all. Every day is a day at a time, and I am done with it.

Remembered seeing this thread yesterday while I was having a cry just now, and popped on to see the responses. you've put into words exactly how I feel. I daydream about a happy future but it feels so far away and impossible. And then I'm just sadder for having thought about how things could be different.

Well, we all are, aren’t we? None of us are mentally synched or merged with any other human.

I’ve felt like this all my adult life. I said it to a counsellor once who was intrigued with what I said. I often used to wish I could just vanish and live in a cottage alone so that I didn’t have to face this frequent feeling of always being on the outer even with other people.

I've always felt a little bit different, and out of kilter with the rest of the world. And, yes. Like I'm looking at it though a glass window, and I'm not really part of it.