@Luredbyapomegranate Thanks for your suggestion. I may be coming across as stressed because I am feeling a little trapped.
I have recently begun a new job which is not working out - its eroding my confidence and might not be for me - and I am worried every day all day about it. I do have low confidence - but then am brilliant at other times!
I am at my desk all day sometimes, and have a probation coming up which won't go well I am sure. I do not know what to do at all.
I am worried about getting another job. I just want to do something simple so I dont let people down and can live a life where I am not consumed by stress.
I have ADs, have done CBT and counselling. I exercise regularly, I have dabbled in meditation inconsistently. I am just not quite coping with life! Kitchen always a mess and eating rubbish food as I am always at desk so cant cook. Etc.
I just want a 9 to 5 that doesnt leave me feeling like I am always failing. I am not work shy - I think I am just not effecrive in how I work as I overthink. I have some great skills too - I just need to find out how and where to use them where they are valued and I am not miserable.
I like research and working with people.
I thought about caring. Problem is there is nowhere to go after that is there (no increase in pay). Gardening I would be rubbish at as I dont know about plants!