I could do with a hug

[pootsy]

I've been on here forever (2006) but barely ever post .

But I could just really do with a virtual hug or a take it all away from me at the minute .

I feel like the past two years have been a blur , surreal . My whole life has changed. I went on holiday in jan 2020 - with massive plans forever . And then boom !!

My life has fallen apart . I can't even write it down as it's like a soap opera . 😢.

And I literally lie in my bed every night thinking . Is this it ???

Is this life ?

I've read the self help books . The sensible ,coherent side of me - says it's a phase - you will come through this - I function, smile -chat my way through the day .

I cook , clean and feed everyone that needs - my beautiful boy and the pets.

But inside I'm dead, bereft and barely functioning.

My husband left to work away and I now get minimal contact .... I have a stessful job myself ... and I just want to quit life 😢

But for my son . My light . My love .

I just want a hug .

I can't tell you what to do because i don't know what has happened in your life that changed everything, but I can tell you that as a mother who lost her child four years ago, life does get better because you find a way of living with grief and setbacks.
You paint your face and look the world in the eye and carry on because that is what we do.
There was a time when i felt so low and wanted to die. I do not feel like that any more. This awful feeling of despair will pass I can promise you because you have things to look forward to and people who rely upon you.

Take care x x

Here’s a hug and a hand hold 🤗 🤚

I'm awake if you want to talk about what happened? Big virtual hugs. X

Here’s another hug.

Another hug here. Whatever has happened I hope you are getting some help and are able to move forward in the future

A big virtual from me

What happened

A hug. Another hug.

I know this feeling all too well. Big unmumsnetty hug from me too. This too shall pass and that jazz - trite but true. Feel free to write out the whole stinking soap opera in instalments if it will help. Even when there’s nothing that can be done, it’s cathartic at least.

Has your marriage ended?
Give MIND a call, they have a helpline and support groups in most areas. Talking therapy is often more effective than a self help book, you need to share your worries with someone.
talking therapy

Thank you all .

I find it really hard to talk about my stuff ..as someone of said before ... I put on my 'face' and get in with it.

But it's shit .

It literally is that . Every morning I put on a mask of make up , well put together clothes - it's become a uniform - I'm told often you're so glam ... you look great !!! And inside I'm so fucking sad .

I'll get over it .

I always do . But for tonight I'm bloody sad,angry,hurt and lonely .

I know it’s hard, but may be this is a nudge to change your approach a bit? Can you afford to try private therapy? You can explain up front how hard you find it to open up, and take it at your own pace.

Another Hug from me, Life is just overwhelming. Can you reduce your work hours, to create some time for you.

How are you doing @pootsy ?