Feeling broken

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I've broken down this morning. The last few weeks have piled on the misery and I just feel there's nothing I can do or get sorted. DH has been suspended from work and they won't tell him what's going on, aren't keeping in touch with him as they're supposed to and have broken their own policies. It appears the non specific accusation is groundless which makes it more frustrating. He's doing everything he can and is pretty resilient, but his health is suffering. A close family member has been diagnosed with a potentially life limiting illness. Another is awaiting diagnosis after a worrying incident. Work is stressful, very busy, and my manager has been an arse about a few things. We live in a big old house that needs so many things sorting. We've had quoted for some things but they're either sky high or the trades aren't available for months on end. Practically every room is untidy or has crap that doesn't belong there in it and I feel like I'm at the end of my tether.

This week I haven't slept properly and I've had a migraine. I don't really know why I'm posting but I feel like I need a big hug.

Big hugs from a random stranger.

It seems overwhelming and it will get better! Focus on some small things. Do something like make a drink, sit down, listen to some music, get out into nature/sit by window. You need to REST and the other stuff will get sorted in future but not right now.

Oh bless you it all sounds v hard. I am a huge believer in taking it one day at a time when I am overwhelmed. You only have to get through today . So just sort one small thing if you can eg one bit of a room or something you have been putting off. It makes me instantly feel better if I have achieved a little goal.
I have a big old house as well and we are 18 years in and still not done so I get your frustration on that score.
Anyway sending a virtual hug and hoping things get better soon for you all x

Noted, and duly sending you a big hug, OP!
Here it is (((( )))))
Troubles never come singly, do they, the bastards. They always turn up mob handed and try to overwhelm you.
I think we have all had times like this in our lives - I know I have. When I reach my limit and feel I can’t deal with it, I hand it over to God in prayer. And not in very sacred language either! More like “FFS, God, I can’t bloody handle any more of this - please can YOU do something!”
When I am very overwhelmed (like when DH died unexpectedly, leaving me with two babies) I couldn’t even speak - just rocked back and forth for hours, until finally managing a one word prayer of “Help”. And God always has - either by calming me and helping me sort it out myself, or by sending other people to my rescue.
I remember my old aunt phoning me in puzzlement 30 seconds after my prayer -saying she had no idea why she was phoning me, but something had irresistibly driven her to. Yes, He does work in mysterious ways!
Mobilise all the help you can, OP. Family, friends, God, professionals. You do not have to cope alone.
Secondly, try to focus on all the lovely things in your life that have NOT gone wrong - you have a loving partner, a big house with lots of potential to create a great home, you have an intelligent mind to start solving the problems, etc. Don’t get bogged down in the negative.
I hope things soon start to improve, OP. No bad patch goes on forever, and this one won’t either. God bless.

Thank you all so much. I've had another cry. Managed to have a chat with DH and he's going to do some moving/sorting which will help.

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How are you doing today. Hope you got some rest and are feeling a bit more positive today. One day at a time x

Thank you checking on me today, that's really kind of you. I am feeling a bit better about things, a bit more perspective I think. I could have slept for longer but DCat decided otherwise this morning. It wasn't too early though.

DH cleared and tidied some stuff away yesterday which made a big difference and we got the place cleaned. I've arranged to see a friend later today and she's offered support which is great.

@Morecrap Oh that's good to hear. Small steps really help to feel at least a bit in control. X

glad to hear there are some improvements and your friend is coming. It can all feel so overwhelming at times. Like Babdoc, I have also employed the emergency prayer... "help" and the odd swear word or several

try and eat well, get some fresh air and sleep well... (none of which I managed today so far... hypocrite!) enjoy meeting with your friend.

Thank you. Didn't meet my friend as I developed a headache late morning. I have sorted some more stuff out though and DH did something he's been promising to sort for several weeks that's been preying on my mind, so that's helped.