Currently pregnant with DC2 and had a meeting with my midwife yesterday who was asking the general questions about my childhood. I was raised by two alcoholic parents, one with bipolar and the other who enjoyed beating the other whilst we watched on. We were always the dirty kids in class (whenever we actually attended!), never clean clothes, never bathed, never read to and we were definitely not given 3 meals a day. Sometimes on weekends we wouldn’t even see our parents as they would be In the pub so we wouldn’t eat. I was also sexually abused and when my parents separated my mum sent me to live with my violent and alcoholic father. Sorry for the long back story!
All round today I am a pretty balanced person. I don’t drink, am happily married to a lovely man who adores me and I have a DD who is my entire world. I don’t really think about my childhood all that often. I do have some trauma surrounding sex etc but that’s the only thing really.
Midwife was surprised and said I seem well put together given my history and has referred me to the safeguarding team anyway. I think she thinks something is bubbling below the surface. I’ve had therapy, I take medication and am generally happy. Is this totally abnormal? I think back to the days when I was little and I used to daydream about getting away from my situation and having a happy life. Honestly I could pinch myself I feel so lucky to have my lovely dd and this little bean who’s on the way.
So, sorry for the very intrusive question, but do you cope? Does it bother you? Do you have issues in your day to day life with your partner/children? It’s not something I often talk about. After the conversation yesterday it has been on my mind a little. I just felt ..a bit ashamed? If that even makes sense.