Is this PTSD ? What can I do ?

[Marinalovesmarmite]

I watched a series yesterday that involved domestic abuse and since then I can’t stop thinking about things that happened to me in my marriage. Some of these things were over 10 years ago. I had not thought of the detail at all since the events .
I have been very stressed about other things recently and now these thoughts are making me very tearful and I feel like I am suddenly grieving for what happened to me and my children despite it being all over a few years ago .
I am floored. I don’t know how to help myself . Am going to try to meditate and read a book to take my mind off it . I have a very stressful day at work tomorrow and I am terrified I will just cry . I am in a management position and need to support my team.
Does anyone have experience of this ? How can l help myself ? I am a single parent with no financial help from the ex so time off work is not an option.

I have diagnosed ptsd, and there is no time frame after the events which caused it, as to when you can be diagnosed, however no one here is qualified to tell you if you do or don't.

You can self refer yourself for an assessment by going here:

www.nhs.uk/service-search/find-a-psychological-therapies-service/

You don't need to see your GP.

Thank you very much . I am going to do that .
I also have a counselling service through work so will ring them tomorrow.
I just feel awful and really struggling with the thoughts that are coming that I can’t seem to stop

@Marinalovesmarmite

Thank you very much . I am going to do that . I also have a counselling service through work so will ring them tomorrow. I just feel awful and really struggling with the thoughts that are coming that I can’t seem to stop

Whilst they couldn't help me in the end, because my issues were too complex they were able to diagnose me. At least that way you would know.

Hi op, you will need therapy. I just bought this book which is really good www.amazon.co.uk/Complex-PTSD-Surviving-RECOVERING-CHILDHOOD-ebook/dp/B00HJBMDXK?tag=mumsnetforu03-21 - even if you are not going through PTSD I am sure the info within would be helpful.

Thank you .
I have done a self referral to steps or wellbeing online.
Thanks for the book recommendation .
My trauma happened over many years of an abusive marriage so not in childhood .
Think I have just kept on going for years and just got on with being a single parent etc I have buried it all