I’m 42 - I have one DD3 and have been with my husband for 12 years. We weren’t able to have children for a long time due to financial issues, largely due to my husband’s actions.
We’re still not in a good financial position. I would not be able to go on mat leave or cover additional childcare without going further into debt. I’m the main earner.
How do I make peace with it? I thought I had come to terms with it but I think deep down I thought it would sort it itself out. I think about it lot - it feels like it’s eating me up. I know I should be grateful for my dd and i truly am but I can’t help thinking about it.. I resent my husband for putting me in the position. Will I ever get over it?