Hi All,
Long time lurker but first post and was hoping for advice.
On paper I have a great job, middle management in a stable company, good pension etc. The problem is every morning I cry before going to work as I just dread it so much. This doesn’t happen when I have a day off so it’s definitely work related. When I go in, the day itself is mostly fine, and at the end of the day I wonder why I was so worked up about it.
Everything else in my life is going fine (apart from some health investigations but feeling okay about that), so the only thing causing my anxiety is work.
I’ve tried taking over 2 weeks of annual leave as thought I needed a break, but it made no difference and I still had the feeling of dread everyday since being back.
All my colleagues and my managers are nice, the workload is high and difficult, but I don’t work too late or take work home with me.
I do not want to go off sick as again I don’t think it’ll help, as when I come back I’ll just feel the same again. Plus given my management role there is an expectation of resilience and just getting on with it, so sick note is not really an option.
I’m at a real loss of what to do 
I’ve having a look at other jobs but I’ve not long been in this role, and it feels like such a risk to leave when I can’t actually pin down anything wrong with the role/company.
I keep wishing I was retired (nowhere NEAR yet) or to go on maternity leave just to have a break from work (I realise looking after DC is a job in itself).
Hoping for some advice and a hand hold please as I’m at such a loss