Past two nights I've woken between 2-3am and been unable to get back to sleep. Think it's an anxiety issue for me. I'm worried about my health (gynae issues and I can't get an appointment till the 20th and even then it's over the phone - seems a bit pointless as a physical examination is absolutely necessary). I haven't even told DH yet as I don't want to worry him - his DM was recently diagnosed with breast cancer, so he's already dealing with that.
I'm also worried about DM, who's been unwell and barely eating for months now, and her doctor can't get to the bottom of why. Yet more tests to come, meaning I have to drive her around the county to have them. I don't mind taking her, I just find it a bit stressful.
And I'm worried about the DC's mental health. DD is autistic, in early puberty, and desperately lonely. DS is deeply sensitive and getting worn down by the relentless low-levelling bullying he's suffered from since starting school (now in Y3). The school won't do anything to support them - as far as they're concerned, they're doing well academically, so they're fine. I'm so tired of having to constantly battle them to get my kids any support.
I wish I could get up when I feel like this - get a warm drink, read a book or whatever to distract myself. But it's a small house, and we're all light sleepers, I'd inevitably disturb someone else. So I'm trapped here, Mumsnetting in the dark till the kids wake up.