After 12 years working on a zero hour contract but only working a few sessions a week I've interviewed for a Real Job. I'd appreciate anyone who fancies helping me think it all through.
I get anxious and I've just suddenly got really anxious about it if I get it.
It would mean afterschool club 3 days a week for one child which in our area is a bit unusual (lots of parents work hours to be able to pick up or have family care). For secondary child it means being home til 5 alone 2 days a week (a club 3rd day).
It means for most of the week I wont "be there" for them to do afterschool snack and listen to them. And eldest does get anxious (autistic.) I'm v aware in mumsnet lots of parents do this and work full time etc. Its just not been our reality and I have loved being able to be there so its a change for us all.
I also have chronic fatigue and get tired easily. But it is 3 contained days (rather than the sporadic zero hours contract) and I could rest on the 4th.
I've lost a lot of confidence and am really anxious about potentially returning to A Proper Job. I was v academic and sailed through uni. But "getting it right" socially and at work makes me (very) anxious especially after all this time out. Im doubting whether Id manage it and manage kids too with anxiety/fatigue. But conversely the routine and purpose might really help!
Financially covid hit us and husbands earning is reduced. We are not a high income family and me earning in this role would make a big difference.