I have been in a 5 year marriage where my husband has been calling up escorts a year and a half into the marriage. It started when he went away for work and still happens now when I’m away for work or visiting friends. Apparently he gets off the call alone and has never met up with any of them. Is that possible at all? I thought that’s what porn was for!?
This week I have been at breaking point and feeling very unhappy. My colleague whose happily married, was reminiscing about his wedding and then asked me about mine. As soon as I finished talking about it, I felt as though I was going to burst into tears and blurted out “well I’ve failed at marriage” I put my head down to start typing but my colleague then said “you ok? let’s talk in private”. He led me into a nearby room in the office and asked me if I was ok and if I wanted to get it off my chest but that I didn’t have to. Well I rambled and rambled and rambled. Absolutely nobody knows what I’ve been going through. I overshared when he gave me his opinion about men usually looking for escorts to get a need fulfilled. I then went on a rant on how I’m the one whose unconventional and is more adventurous, so that excuse can’t be used. He looked a bit surprised but was very sympathetic and tried to reassure me.
As soon as I got home, I was kicking myself for saying so much and revealing such personal detail about my relationship. I’ve never blurred the boundary like this at work or ever brought drama into the work place. I just feel so worthless and embarrassed. I did message thanking him for listening and apologising for oversharing. He said it was ok as long as I felt better. I don’t know how I’m going to face this person again - it was out of character for me and I don’t want to lose his friendship, as it’s light-hearted and easygoing.