Apologies for the length of this and also apologies because I know so many people are going through worse things right now. My mind is a mess and I didn’t know where else to post this. I just feel like offloading and MN has helped me so many times in the past. I have a supportive DH who knows about all of this but currently living with extended family who I want to keep some things private from.
Basic situation is I have just finished my 10 day isolation from testing positive for Covid (symptoms were sneezing and runny nose, no fever etc) and last night was first time me and DH DTD since it all happened. We have 2 DC, youngest is 6 months so not actively planning for another baby yet. We use condoms and lo and behold, the condom slipped off (sorry if tmi). This is the first time anything like this has happened and of course I started panicking as I am currently on day 9 of my cycle. Cycles are usually 28-30 days but last 2 cycles since having first dose of Pfizer have been 27 days. I think I usually ovulate day 13-14 (EWCM, sometimes get cramps). So I know I’m currently in my fertile days. Woke up this morning and went out and got the EllaOne pill (first time I’ve ever had to do this). From what I’ve read the MAP works by delaying or preventing ovulation and if you’ve already ovulated it pretty much doesn’t work?
I’ve always suffered with negative ‘what if?’ thinking and pretty much feeling worried all the time and now my mind is going into overdrive and I have the following thoughts- please don’t laugh:
What if because of having Covid I will ovulate much earlier than normal and the MAP won’t work?
What if I have a bad reaction to the MAP?
What if is just simply doesn’t work? And I have to have another C section so soon after DC 2? This thought terrifies me. Abortion isn’t an option for me.
I was due to have my 2nd Pfizer a few days ago but because of testing positive I have to delay this by 28 days and I was pretty worried anyway about catching Covid in between doses and possible reactions. But now I’m thinking everything is a mess as I would have had Covid, MAP plus 2 weeks ago had antibiotics for a Wisdom tooth infection and therefore had so many things going on in my body that what if I have a terrible time with the 2nd jab? What if it all messes up together like some kind of lethal cocktail God forbid?
Sorry if this doesn’t make sense, I just needed to get it all down. Please be kind. I’m feeling totally overwhelmed, I have the usual mum guilt and parenting worries and the usual tiredness of day to day life but I feel like this is going to tip me over the edge.
If anyone could share their experiences if they’ve been through anything similar, that would be great.
Thank you.