Just wanted to offload really. I've been separated from DS for the past 18 months due to covid and I've finally been able to book my ticket and everything. But now the loss of sleep over missing him has been replaced with losing sleep over the upcoming PCR test. I do have anxiety over unknown situations anyway but I've never felt so stressed about something before. I have a low paid job and have been saving and scrimping for the past 18 months to finally have enough to buy my plane ticket. I have left the house maybe 2 times in the last 3 weeks since booking my ticket as a way of trying to protect myself from the test coming up positive. I've had the vaccinations but honestly that doesn't give me much reassurance because people can still get a positive after it. The entire situation is just so stressful all because of one test.
Am I taking this all out of proportion? I should be so happy at the fact that I can finally see DS again after so long but I can't bring myself to get my hopes up.