Today has been THE worded day I have encountered for a very very long time. Just want to run away.

[Damnyoureyes]

So so bad.
Just don’t know what to do with myself.

Not usually a maudlin or moany person, not normally affected to any extent by very much.
Today though has taken all my strength and I now feel like I’ve been through a mental health cement mixer if there was such a thing.

At the end.
Life is just a big bag of shite sometimes isn’t it?

Worded!? Worst…

Yes.

Would it help to talk about what's happened?

Is it something in particular that has happened? Or is it a final straw situation? It's horrible when you hit that wall.

Horrible days are awful but you have got through it and hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day for you.

Thanks for replying x
Several things.
A friend and colleague lost her little girl, funeral was today. My child is the same age.
I went to be a bystander support for her and her family and it was beautiful but horrific all at the same time. I think that selfishly, I will be forever affected by seeing that tiny coffin and those happy trotting horses bringing her to the church.

Found out that my (just) 18 year old niece is expecting her second child with another boyfriend, she is vulnerable, autistic and seems incapable of making a good decision and the future is bleak, hopeless and completely down a hole for her and these poor children that she keeps producing.

And then my son, who has a fantastic once in a lifetime opportunity has come home to say he is so unhappy, isn’t capable of keeping up and wants to quit. I don’t feel like I can leave him for fear of what he will do. I don’t know what to say to him.

Just shitballs, total total shitballs.