need to reduce work but irrationally terrified about it

[exhaaaausteddddd]

I'm so so tired. I'm working 5 days and 3 nights a week (not for the same workplace) plus another day doing training for a qualification.

I was so terrified about being a broke single mum after I had my baby I took every new opportunity on without giving the thing I was already doing up, and now I've ended up here. I can now afford to quit the night job as I am moving in with a partner, but I am scared about not having money. I know it is not rational! I'm in bed now and my heart is pounding and I feel awful. I know I just need to be brave and do it. I haven't had good experiences at the place I want to quit, but have been there years and it feels like a wrench.

I know this is making me ill, but I'm terrified of quitting something.

Wow, you're a superstar! Seriously, hats off.
So you've done the numbers and on paper it's a sensible decision. You just need to bite the bullet and afterwards you'll find it's so much better than you thought. Sleep is honestly a better investment than money - essential for health and good for your training too. You can always pick work back up if it doesn't work out, there's a hiring crisis on. Very best of luck

It will be very hard to be rational when sleep deprived.
With all that work under your belt you would find another job again if you needed to. Time to get some sensible balance in your life

Thanks both

I really do need to bite the bullet, everything just feels so unstable, I think its that anxiety holding me back!

Just remember, you can always get another night job in the future if you need to. It's not an irreversible decision. Quit that job and see how you get on