Hi all I’m writing this upset. So my mum is the most caring mum bringing us up. She is with a man who is coercive and just in general not a nice man but is quite powerful financially. She has been with him for 24 years. Over the last 2 years I haven’t spoke to him as just really horrible to my mum. I have tried to offer her a place but she loves him. He basically won’t let her see me as I had fallen out with him. So over 2 years I have barely spoken to my mum. In June I was really low depressed anxiety so bad and was off sick for 10 weeks. I just wanted my mum. I expressed to her I message that I feel like I’m grieving constantly for her and said I can’t keep feeling that way so I would have to not be in that relationship as it makes me so sad when I can’t speak to her when I need her. Anyway today she visited after 4 months of not speaking to say happy birthday to my eldest son. I got immediately upset asked if she felt awkward and she said yes. I got upset and left my house as I was to upset. I asked my sister to let me know in advance that they visiting my son so I could be out as I didn’t want to get upset and feel the way I did previously. She stayed 10 mins and left. No emotion nothing I feel from her and just received a message to say she has no time for herself basically let alone me. I feel so upset haven’t stopped crying and feel this is it. Has anyone else felt grieving feeling to something like this. Is this normal