After 4 years of training (access course then degree), I’m finally qualified as an Adult Nurse, on the NMC register and about to start my dream job as a district nurse tomorrow!
I’ve been on here for years but name change all the time. I’ve spent a LOT of time on the relationship boards, asking for advice on exdp. He was a gaslighter and mentally/financially abusive to me. 7 years ago I was working in a total dead end job, suffering from depression, living in a tiny little flat with no carpets because exdp was too tight to pay for them and crying myself to sleep every night whilst trying to look after baby ds.
Finally worked up the courage to leave him and lived in a hostel for a bit, got let go from my job so was on benefits for a few months. Had loads of family
Support but just no room for us. I’d still cry myself to sleep every night and felt like THE biggest failure in the world. Was so tempted to go back to exdp as life was ‘easier’ but stood strong
7 years later I’m just about to buy a house with my lovely, lovely boyfriend. Ds is thriving, he’s such a happy boy. Struggles in school a bit but is getting help and is confident, happy and kind. He sees his dad every other weekend and loves going to his. I have loads of friends and a busy social life. I have managed to go to university and complete my degree, juggling the stresses of that with caring for DS. It’s been so hard, god it’s been hard but it’s done.
And now tomorrow I start a job. DP is away tonight and ds is tucked up in bed and I’m thinking about how far my life has come. I could cry for the younger me of 7 years ago. I cannot believe how much my life has changed and if someone had told me all them years ago whilst I was in that hostel that this is where my life would be I’d have literally laughed in their face. I’m so proud of myself, it’s not something I’d say out loud but I am. Im totally rambling now but anyone who feels stuck or that it’s too late or in a crap relationship or anything like that, things can change. They really can. Life doesn’t have to be so terrible.
Anyway! Not sure what the point of this post was and Im aware I probably sound drunk because I’m rambling so much 😅. But yeah, I’ve spent a lot of time on mumsnet since ds was a baby and I’ve had a lot of help and advice so just wanted to share!