Perfectionism and imposter syndrome at my new job

[perfectionistic]

I started a new job recently and ever since I have started being assigned actual tasks (as opposed to training) my perfectionism and imposter syndrome has reared its ugly head. I skip my lunches so I can carry on doing work and I even do work on the weekends and evenings. It is not company expectation, they are very strict on ensuring all employees take their lunch break away from their desk and not working any over-time.

I have a presentation to give this afternoon of some work I have been doing and I just feel like it's so rubbish. I have spent probably triple the amount of time I should have on it as I worked on it this weekend too yet I can't reach a point where I'm happy with it.

I know this is not sustainable, I shouldn't be feeling this stressed a week into starting this job and I know it's all self-imposed.

Does anyone have any advice?

Watching (and wishing you well but can't advise!)

Hi op

Did you interview for the role? If yes i expect against other candidates and you were offered the job and so you should take some confidence that you are the best person for the job.

Lunch- take the hour away from your desk it might help give you some perspective when you have some time away.

You have spent far too much time on the presentation. Its time to stop. Ask for feedback following the presentation in particular from your line manager if they are present and then use this as the basis going forward for next time. If its perfect save the template!

I am big believer in any feedback is good feedback so even if something could be done better its a learning curve!

Good luck

Following because I’m in exactly the same boat. Even down to the presentation (mine is tomorrow).

Not possibly what you want to hear but it took me almost six months to stop feeling like this in my new job and I think you just kind of have to make peace with being the newbie and that people are probably checking out your performance but it sounds like you're working really hard and I'm sure they can see that. What I would do is try to get a bit of Feedback from your line manager as to how they think you're settling in to put your mind at rest.
Definitely don't burn yourself out with working through lunch etc