I want a do-over.

[MrsRobbieHart]

I’m so done with the cock up I’ve made of my life. And my DCs lives. I want to go back to age 14 and do it all again, but right. Do the smart things. Not be an arrogant twat thinking I knew it all when I knew the grand sum of sweet fuck all.

You can’t change a single thing about your past unfortunately @MrsRobbieHart, but you absolutely can change the future. I try not to have regrets, as I think the decisions I made in the past were based on the best knowledge that I had at that time. Nobody willingly makes a decision knowing it’s a bad one. I would say that there are always things that we can learn from situations that haven’t turned out as expected.
Give yourself a break, stop looking behind you - you are not going that way. I would start a journal where I note down all the things I’m either grateful for or proud of. Work out what you can do now to improve things. Start with small, short term goals that will make you feel you have achieved something when completed. Then move onto longer term goals.
If you like reading, look at the book by James Smith - Not a life coach. He doesn’t mince his words but he talks some sense.
If you’re on Instagram, look up @Paul Mort. Again, he’s fairly blunt in his approach but he has faced some awful challenges & now coaches people. Also, Ed Cunningham on Instagram who suggests books for situations is good. His Instagram is @aneed2read
I hope things improve for you OP.

Thank you for responding @Whatliesbeneath707. I’ll look up your recommendations. Tbh though I have been trying to make progress in my life to improve things for so long and I feel like I’m wading through treacle. I’m getting nowhere. This has been a bad week topped off with a very bad day so I’m feeling sorry for myself but the reality is I’m just not going to be able to fix what needs to be fixed.

I’m sorry you feel like this @MrsRobbieHart. A bad week and then a bad day are a shit combination. Do you have any close friends or family that you can chat to? I sometimes find speaking to someone who knows me, can give me quite a different perspective. Good luck, I hope things soon get better for you.

Yes that’s a good idea. I have a friend I can ring.