I'm fairly newly widowed and on a mission to keep myself occupied and not dwell too much. I'm also making a point of doing some of the things I couldn't do because of lockdown and DH's illness.
One of them is a play I'd like to see and I was about to book one ticket and go on my own. I do have friends, but it's hard to ask them to these things without their partners and on the spur of the moment. It's the kind of things that I'd have either mentioned and booked straight away or just booked and told DH I'd done it that I'm struggling for company with.
Anyway, I'd decided to go on my own and enter a brave new world .
Just as I was browsing the site, a friend called me about a mutual friend she was worried about. She hadn't been able to contact him for a while, did I
have a phone number? I do, but I don't pass people's numbers on without permission so I called him.
Long story but he's fine. However, when I put the phone down it occured to me that he might like the show.
- He's long divorced and single for as long as I've known him (10 years +)
- He's nice enough but not someone I'd really go out of my way to spend time with. When I say friend I mean acquaintance really. I've barely seen or spoken to him since before lockdown. Previously we'd often be at the same events and chat then, but never met up deliberately.
- I don't want him or anyone else to get the "wrong idea". DH hasn't been dead long.
- I know he is lonely and I probably have been a rubbish friend when I could have done better. Now it's convenient for me I want his company...
- I know he's not flush for cash and this is a London theatre ticket
It wouldn't have occurred to me if friend hadn't called and asked me to contact him, just as I was thinking about booing a ticket, so it feels like a bit if an omen. On the other hand, just downright weird?
I'm having a bit of a sod it "you only live once" phase, but....?