How can I get over these feelings?

[PersyD]

I’m aware that I sound like a terrible person but I’d appreciate any advice on how to get over this.

My best friend told me she was 12 weeks pregnant yesterday. It was the first month that they had started trying and they are over the moon.
I thought I would feel really happy for them but, instead, I just feel jealous.
DH and I went through a lot of heartbreak on our journey to having our DS and I guess I feel jealous of how easy it has been for them. We’re not planning on having any more children for another couple of years (if we are lucky enough to have another) so it’s not jealousy that they’re having a baby, more that they haven’t had to go through the pain that we have experienced.

I know this sounds horrible and I would never tell my friend, or anyone else IRL.
Has anyone else been through this or have any tips on dealing with these feelings? I really don’t want to feel like this as I’ve never thought of myself as a jealous person before!

A degree of jealousy in life is normal, but you might find it helpful to talk to a counsellor to explore it.

I had a different situation and realised what I was afraid of were constant updates about the situation as everytime it discombobulated me and I have a life to get on with and don't want to feel constantly upset, so I put in place good boundaries for myself and decided only to give what support I could manage and not feel guilty.

Also spend an equal amount of time on being happy for them as your own feelings, if that makes sense.

Thank you @MistySkiesAfterRain

I think you’ve hit the nail on the head when you said you were worried about constant updates. I spent my entire pregnancy feeling incredibly anxious after several previous losses and so someone being so excited and confident (which is totally normal) has stirred up some feelings I didn’t realise I had!
I found counselling really helpful when we were going through the losses so I might give it another go if these feelings continue.