Frightened and exhausted. Feel so desperate to get through this thought I'd be safe by now. Can't do this alone without professional. Tried hard but impossible and now so broken by trying on my own,vso frightened, feel desperate for emotionsl support when going through fight to be safe.
Called local domestic abuse support service. Website says they offer advocacy and casework support. Waiting list is open in my area. I called two weeks ago. They sounded nice took my number. Called back 20 minutes later to say waiting list was closed in my area. They said website not updated. Two weeks later it's still saying my area list is open. I felt so shocked and upset, I called and got different person who answered. I gave fake name and was told was open to take me on. I had to hang up was so upset and feel more vulnerable cos places meant to help are doing that to me. Refusing to help, lying. Feel physically sick from stress been months trying to get help.
Don't know if should complain. Been through so much can't take much more. The violence and abuse but also had horrible time trying to get help and places lying or turning me away. Housing departments breaking the law think taking advantage of my vulnerability and no one supporting me. Social services in my area also breaking law. So overwhelmed exhausted. So many years living in fear with violence awful fear and risk and control but now being broken more by places meant to help not helping.
Feel at my limit and sick of places doing this.