Feeling utter crap please give a handhold

[sprinkleyumnut]

Really really struggling. For the first time in weeks I've just broke down and cried. I've not been able to for quite awhile. I'm on universal credit and it really sucks. They give me pennies. I've been on UC before and it's just really horrible. I am thankful for the money I receive but having to go to the job centre twice a month and all the job searching with such a lack of jobs it sucks. I have really bad anxiety and they get this to a degree. The other day I just gave up. My old job won't have me back and even kfc won't take me on. You may have seen my post in AIBU the other day. My anxiety is so bad I am monophobic and I don't drive either which extremely limits the amount of jobs I can get. I've got no self confidence or self esteem as it is. I can't see this ever getting better. It's made me get so overwhelmed from crying I struggled to breathe today. Please no judgement I can't take it. I'm not even dressed that's how bad I am struggling today.

@sprinkleyumnut really sorry you're having such a hard day today. I remember being skint, it sucks. what else is wrong in your life (you mention anxiety), are you getting all the help you can for your other issues? can you phone a friend? it's ok to cry, you know that, sometimes we have to reach the lowest point before we can go up 💐

[quote Stovetopespresso]@sprinkleyumnut really sorry you're having such a hard day today. I remember being skint, it sucks. what else is wrong in your life (you mention anxiety), are you getting all the help you can for your other issues? can you phone a friend? it's ok to cry, you know that, sometimes we have to reach the lowest point before we can go up 💐[/quote]
Thank you for your beautiful words. My fiance should be coming soon after he finishes work. Allsorts is wrong in my life. I'm fat, and I don't really have friends. I'm 29 this year.

So sorry you are feeling this way. I hope you feel some kind of release after letting the tears out, it's sometimes just needed

Can you get a doc to sign you off for a bit just to give you some space?

Are you registered with any agencies to help you search?

When DH was claiming JSA a few years ago we actually ended up stoping the claim and dipping into savings as he just could not bear going to the job centre every 2 weeks - he found it utterly soul destroying and says he totally gets how you feel

Big hand hold

@jackstini

So sorry you are feeling this way. I hope you feel some kind of release after letting the tears out, it's sometimes just needed

Can you get a doc to sign you off for a bit just to give you some space?

Are you registered with any agencies to help you search?

When DH was claiming JSA a few years ago we actually ended up stoping the claim and dipping into savings as he just could not bear going to the job centre every 2 weeks - he found it utterly soul destroying and says he totally gets how you feel

Big hand hold

Thank you, yes thinking of going to the doctors to get the job centre to back off its getting too much now. Unfortunately I have no savings but glad you were able to do that. Thanks for the lovely words. Felt a bit of a release but feel more to come.

Well I have an interview with Kfc.... How do I tell them I can't work past 8pm though? I have transport issues

Well done for getting the interview!
Did they specify any times in the job description? If not just state the time restrictions you are under due to transport

Good luck

@jackstini

Well done for getting the interview! Did they specify any times in the job description? If not just state the time restrictions you are under due to transport

Good luck

Thank you. No they haven't specified any times. I am worried they will reject me if I say I have transport issues regarding being picked up late. Its literally because my fiance has to get to work for 6am so he doesn't want to be picking me up late understandably. I guess I could always get a taxi. I really need this job.