Got on the scales today and I've gone to 13.2st. So since ds 18m ago I've gained nearly a stone. I'm 5ft4
Problem is I have no will power. I'm constantly exhausted 2 under 3.5 and they're a handful, one don't sleep well. So I constantly eat crap food that make me feel good.
Issue I have is years ago I used laxatives as a way to lose weight and lost loads to the point I looked ill. Thankfully when I met dh I stopped through embarrassment but it was hard. It crosses my mind every day to just do it again as its a quick fix. But I know I shouldn't but its a fight with myself.
Today because I'm now so stressed about it I've eaten a cereal bar that's it. I'm so hungry and I just want to delve into chocolate biscuits or whatever is here.
DH always says in being silly when I say I'm fat. He says I'm not he loves me if I was a size 6 or 26
Tbh I don't know what I'm even trying to get at because I know it's my fault. Because I go for the sweet junk constantly. And j know I then get the sugar crash then crave more.
I think the only reason I'm not heavier is I'm on the go all day with the kids. From getting up at 7am I sit down at 10pm. Except dinner time for 20 min.