Since the pandemic started I have felt quite low, I don't know if I'm depressed or just tired with the demands of life tbh.. we have also reached the end of a huge amount of work and stuff in our lives. We had three kids in 6 years, pretty bad sleepers for years, moved countries houses, big renovation work. I work pt and dh ft. We have lots of family but no support practically or emotionally. Just before the pandemic I had finally carved out a bit of time for myself and my youngest , then 2 and half had started in a childminder , two older ones in school. Then they were at home for months with us trying to work etc, again no help from anyone. Where we live childcare is v v expensive and over-subscribed. As a result I work around the kids, my youngest is only in preschool until 11.30am, theres no option to add on hours whatsoever. My dh is v hands on and we are v equal, we swap over a lot to give each other time. I'm not sure what it is but I've lost a lot of enthusiasm for things, I bring the kids out loads and we do lots of nice things like go to the beach , cycling, swimming etc but I don't always enjoy it, the kids are all very physical and busy so it can be stressful when out and about. I do try and run a few times a week and that absolutely helps..I just feel quite low energy and not enthusiastic. The house is always really clean and tidy as that is important to me.
I definitely lack a person I can really talk to, I've never been able to talk to my mum or dad and tbh they rarely spend any time with us anyway. I do have friends here but covid and lockdowns has hit ppl and they are less up for meeting , its returning a bit but slowly. Also where we live they all have family around them and spend time with them and cousins.
I'm not sure what I am asking , maybe some tips to get some mojo back or if others feel the same? I often find I'm looking forward to bed top much...