EMDR Therapy for PND/Trauma - So hopeful it will work. Any experience?

[RainbowMamaThree]

I have just started EMDR for PND linked to trauma of stillbirth and a subsequent traumatic birth during the first lockdown. I feel like I’ve exhausted every other Avenue for recovery. I had my first proper EMDR yesterday after the prep work and I don’t know if I actually experienced anything, or if I was just forcing the memories into my mind and just actively thinking about it?
Basically, after reading that some people literally get instant relief, I wonder if anyone felt it took a little longer to work/get used to?
I didn’t have the images flashing up and I didn’t feel like any thoughts were involuntary.
I suffer from intrusive OCD thoughts and depression as a result of this trauma and I just need to get a bit better! Thank you!

Just an update on my therapy for anyone who might find it beneficial/have any words of advice. I’ve now had three sessions and still don’t feel I’ve experienced much in the way of images. What I have had it physical spasm type pains in my tummy. I haven’t had any moments of clarity, or much in the way of a sense of relief.
Has anyone else responded physically and still found the therapy to work? I feel still that I’m actively trying to focus all my thoughts on the trauma during the sessions, rather than it coming naturally. Still have the intrusive thoughts - I am much better than I was a year ago but I’m still not well. I’m so hopeful that it will work but starting to worry about it not working as it’s been three sessions with (what feels like) not much difference.
@LoveMySituation I have had OCD from childhood but never in a life changing way before with such horrible intrusive thoughts. Those thoughts are entirely linked to my trauma. But I was certainly pre-disposed to that way of thinking and the ‘something bad S going to happen’ feeling.

Hmmm.. the thing that helped me was actually getting some information that explained what happened: I wasn't sure what I remembered, and people who were also there told me I was imagining some of the events. My therapist felt EMDR would not help me bc my brain was trying to make sense of what happened, and why I acted like I did. One day someone else came along and said they had been there and what they saw. It was a complete surprise but explained why the other person thought I imagined it - it was almost literally a lightning strike which most people didn't see but I did. My brain just closed the case, as soon as I heard that, and stopped replaying the tape.
If your PTSD is due to missing information maybe EMDR is less effective than when it's due to the awful suddenness that has you constantly on guard.