Worried about my mental health but don't know what to do

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I've been under some stress lately, and seem to be getting more and more paranoid. I haven't got much energy. And am keeping life to bare minimum. Just been given some stressful news at work, after being taken on on blended working agreement (which ended up being entirely wfh) I've just been given 4 days notice to come back into the office, during the summer holidays. I have no childcare. The office is an hrs travel. Including walk, train, walk. I don't know what I'm going to do. My flat is filled with bugs, every summer there is a different infestation. Everything is up in the air with my neighbours, a relative has just died. I need everything to stop for a moment while I sort it out bit by bit. Yesyrtsay my dd had to wake me up, id fallen asleep after tea, and couldn't open my eyes, moving felt pain full like when you've got the flu or something. And that's persisted all day. I'm scared, jumpy, paranoid, lethargic, and tired. I just want a nice warm cuddle and to feel safe. Don't know what to do, any ideas? Don't know why I'm posting really.
I live in the nightclub/old red light district and it's been so noisey since lock down lifted.
This sounds horrible, because of all the ppl who hated it, and who died, but I just wish we could go back to lockdown, and I could work from home, and all the noise of pubs and clubs would go.

Write a list of all the changes you need to make to make to improve your mental health. Maybe things like ..

Moving to a quieter area with an easier commune

Looking for a new job if unhappy

Explaining to work that you’ll need to secure childcare before you can return and actively looking for options

I’m so sorry you’re going through all those things. I personally think you need to take your own advice and take some time to just stop. Could you take some sickness time off work?

I totally get what you’re saying about wishing we could go back to lockdown. We all felt safe and in control. So many people I know, including myself, are really anxious about all these people “going back to normal” when this disease hasn’t yet gone away. You’re not alone.

I feel you op

It's a horrid over whelming feeling.

Can you take any sick leave?

If you can do that for a few days it will give you time to make a list of things that need to be dealt with and in which order.

Then deal with each thing at a time.
Can you ask work for continued blended working for the holidays?
If that's a possibility could you then look into family or friends to cover some other days?

Do you have rl support at all?
Even a friend to sit and have a coffee with and tel them what's going on?
I'm always surprised at how much more ordered in the mind I feel when I do this

Thank you everyone who has replied. Its really nice to get some support, and know other people feel this way - although not that they're struggling, obviously. Things are going on in work that I really don't agree with, not just the way the move back to the office has been done, but other things too, things I think are unethical, but am sure I'll be made to feel silly about if I try and raise it, and will just loose me friends.
I will have a word with them on Monday, and try my best to be assertive, which really hasn't been me lately. In the past I never had a problem, but lately just been a doormat. Not sure why. If I need some sick time, I will take it. If I can't levy myself with the changes they are putting in, and how it is being done, I'll have to find the mental engergy to look for a different job.
You're right about small steps. I keep my friendship circle small. But this has made me realise I probably need to keep in touch with more ppl. Don't have many ppl I can really talk to about this.
Thanks all for replies 💐