I'm so stressed and sad. I've been planning my dds birthday for ages. She has had a tough year, and found covid hard. We are taking her friend out for a fun day and had lots planned. I have a baby who has just started nursery, and the she is now poorly. Which has made my DD have a runny nose. I am an anxious person, and my head is spinning. She is so excited, so excited. And I cant actually believe this is happening today. She is traumatised by covid tests. I would hate to do that to her today, me and her dad and been doing flow tests every day and they are negative. I'm just so paranoid. Its probably just a cold!! Like they happen!! But I cant help but worry. I think I might stay at home with the baby and she go out without me. I'm just so sad and deflated. I was so excited. I have family that are so paranoid about covid which rubs of on me. Everyone around us has been double jabbed, me and oh have our first with our second booked. I just dont know what to do today. I'm just sat in the bathroom writing this because I feel so guilty for feeling anxious. And its raining. Fml.