And don't know why!
Broke up with him a couple months back after he covered me with bruises and was an asshole.
The crux of it is, that the argument started because I didn't want to introduce him to my kids. I knew it was never gonna go the distance, but I was fine with it being what it was. He did not take that well.
He was awful when it ended, the physical aside, he was just nasty. And he's blocked across all platforms. No contact, haven't received anything or made any attempts to contact him.
But I am really struggling with that right now. I feel this desperate urge to reach out. I miss him. He consumes all my thoughts, I want to tell him about every little thing. I see so many things that remind me of him, things I would normally share with him. And I've tried sharing these things with others but it doesn't work. It doesn't reduce this longing.
I really want to let go. Why is this so strong right now?
I felt I was doing well, I have therapy, focus on myself and kids and friends etc then this appears!!!