Going on holiday in the morning - expecting a disaster - why am I like this? Are you like this?

[BigStinger]

So holiday has been booked for ages. Tickets for things booked, mostly not refundable.

For the last week I've been expecting something to happen to ruin it. Mainly covid!

Kids finished up school, so we're clear there, have tried to keep away from as many people/places as we can. So far so good.

Lots of people we know have come down with covid but we've not been near them. Yet I'm still expecting something to happen and we won't get away. I was ironing a while ago and sneezed and thought 'that's it' one of the dcs literally coughed one time and I was on high alert!

I've not been overly bothered the whole way through, pretty much if the mindset of we'll try our best to avoid it, not crazy measures but if we get it we get it. The last 10 days I've become insane. I've done numerous lat flows, imagining symptoms. I didn't used to be like this!

Is anyone else like this? Hoping I go back to the usual me once we set off tomorrow!!

We are on hol at the moment (Uk) The trip is postponed from 12 months ago. I always used to get really excited about holidays. This time I was on absolute pins for the final week and no gleeful anticipation whatsoever. The hol is going well but I’m looking forward to being home again (over exaggerated need for safety)

You’ve done the right thing, OP, in making a plan for “what if?” and I do hope you have a lovely time.

Yup. Makes me feel slightly better that other people feel this way.

So many, many things that I was hoping for had changed since March 2020 I try my best to adjust but now it's like I've got a whole different mindset, at it's best, just trying to take things as they come.

But relaxed it isn't. I've been having ridiculous anxiety dreams lately. The way I deal with it is just to think 'oh shxt, there's an anxiety dream again ' and try to let it go.

I just wanted to come back to this to say all was fine, we had a lovely time and couldn't have hoped for better weather.

I hope everyone else who was feeling anxious or the same way also get away and have a lovely time too.

Thanks for talking sense to me last week, I really need it!