I don't even know how to word any of this. There's alot of stressful things going on in my life. It's me that has to hold everything together. The main issue is a big one that is just awful and its one of the most stressful things I have had to deal with. Which will be on going for a while. On top of this I have my children to look after. Including one with special needs. Just the day to day of running a home and family I'm finding very stressful . Even when the children are at school. I'm still dealing with the main issue. Which never really leaves my mind. Then everything is busy till around 10pm at night. Then I go to bed but I can't sleep because things are just going round in my head all the time. I don't feel I can say to anyone. I'm having a me day or some time on my own. If something happened I would never forgive myself. I'm sorry if this does not make much sense its just all a mix in my head.